| Retro |
[Feb. 10th, 2010|05:28 pm] |
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| Sweet Lovin' |
[Feb. 9th, 2010|08:28 am] |
Had fun catching up with you guys! Till a proper date! :)
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| Did it again |
[Feb. 7th, 2010|08:46 pm] |
      The day was kind of like a flop because we traveled from place to place just to sit and eat. Seriously, is it just me or is town like freaking packed on Saturdays? And I kinda the miss the old Orchard Road. The one where the shopping centers don't blare with annoying techno/trance music as you walk along. What's the point of that anyway? The transformation's too fast and furious for my liking. And what is the point of having a three storeyed Forever 21 when you don't even have the space to shop? The crowd just turns me off. Ugh. Despite all of it, the company (& the food) made the whole day worth it. Though my mum let me take my ATM card out for the day, I didn't shop till I drop this time round. Was kind of sad because it's not always that my mum is so nice as to give me my card when I asked her for it. I had to go through her financial literacy lecture the night before. But she was so nice. The next morning, she gave it to me despite scolding me to be financially sound and not impulsive. Well anyway, if it wasn't for Mil's refusal to shop at Far East Plaza, I would've already gotten some nice threads. But I guess it was alright. I might as well wait for payday(tomorrow by the way!). Save myself the guilty indulgence. Anyway, hope the make-up date would be better! You know what the funny thing is? The funny thing is, after a whole day of doing nothing except for eating/talking/traveling-from-one-place-to-the-other-to-eat-or-talk, I actually felt tired and had the best snooze of my life that night. Has it really been that long? ps: I've come to the conclusion that my Olympus camera works better outdoors than the Samsung one (Spot the difference?) |
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[Feb. 6th, 2010|12:34 pm] |
Hello February! Thanks for treating me right so far!
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| Inspired |
[Feb. 3rd, 2010|07:33 pm] |
"A good teacher is like a candle - it consumes itself to light the way for others"
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[Feb. 3rd, 2010|04:00 pm] |
Earlier today, me and FY were so bored out of our wits that we ended up discussing about A Levels. And then,along came the surge of anxiety that I haven't felt in a long time
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| Stay Beautiful |
[Feb. 2nd, 2010|04:35 pm] |
| [ | Listening To |
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| Y'know it's all a state of mind |
[Jan. 25th, 2010|04:34 pm] |
I wanna be rich, I wanna be happy
And live inside a love that shines bright enough to last a lifetime
I wanna be rich, more than a fantasy
Ride the winds and fly,
Spread your wings and fly
Cause its all a state of mind
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| After you'd gone |
[Jan. 24th, 2010|12:39 pm] |
The strangest thing about this is that a thought can go on and on circling your mind, that you can't stop obsessing over it, that there are no brakes to apply to things you no longer want to think about. In normal life, you distract yourself - pick up a newspaper, go out for a walk, turn on the television, phone somebody up. You can throw your mind a sop, trick yourself into thinking you're all right, that the thing that's been haunting you is resolved. It won't work for long, of course - an hour, two hours if you're lucky - because nobody's that stupid and because these things always come back to you when you're once more idle and distractionless. In the small, dark hours of the night, when you're being rocked into blank-mindedness on a bus.
The problem with being like this is that you are constant prey to these exhausting cycles of thought. Just now, I am getting no rest from how terrible it is that he doesn't know.
He who knows me better than anyone else has no idea of this. No inkling. We think we know everything there possibly is to know about each other. And then suddenly I discover this massive thing that alters the whole path of my life.
It's like those kitsch religious card you can buy in Catholic countries; the one with a ridged, plastic finish that just look strange and lurid and three-dimensional until you tilt them and discover another picture behind the first. You can make it look as if Mary is bringing her hands up to pray, or Jesus is blessing you, or that the angels are crying. To me it feels as if everything has been tilted to reveal this whole other picture which has existed, just out of sight, all along.
I keep trying - over and over, because I can't switch it off, can't fool myself into numbness with meaningless activities - to imagine what he would say; how he might have reacted if I had come back to a house with him in it, and said, "John, I saw the most terrible thing today. You won't believe what I saw, let me tell you what I saw." |
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[Jan. 19th, 2010|10:07 pm] |
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Am starting work tomorowwwwww! \m/
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| I've missed this space |
[Jan. 15th, 2010|03:59 pm] |
And I don't think I'll let it be in idle mode anymore. Still, it's not as if anything eventful happened as of late. I'm just lazing around, taking things as they come. Gotta enjoy these last few days of freedom before work sets in. And as much as I'm thrilled to be doing something after about a month or so, I can't help but feel sad that all this laziness has to go. The thing about me is that when I'm lazy, I am damn lazy. Period. You know how everyone has got plans to do anything and everything after As? I do have those plans but I never got about to actually doing them. But when I'm busy, I'll be super swamped. That's when I try to do as much as I can. I'll be super ambitious, trying to do everything. Odd, right? I remember even as I'm busy preparing for As, I didn't mind going for a jog, staying fit. It's annoying, this bad habit of mine. Anyway this job of mine is pretty flexible. I value that. So I guess I definitely have time to relax for a while. But I'm not really concerned about that. I'm just concerned if I'd do good in the job. It's a huge responsibility in a way. You indirectly have someone's future in your hands. And I do want the students to do well and I want to contribute as much as I can in helping them. I'll be keeping those fingers crossed.
Speaking of keeping fingers crossed, sis has already gotten her O Level results. It was not bad. I'm so happy her hard work in Math really paid off. So proud of her for that. I hope she'd chosen the right course. In fact, I've been discouraging her from entering JC. I'd never want to see her go through what I went through. Affects me indirectly. I just hope she isn't succumbing to my mum's demands. My mum has a way of getting us to do what she wants. What do you call it? Emotional blackmail. But I've made it clear I won't be a victim of it. Ha ha ha. So now that sis has finally gotten her results, I'm the only one who's still in limbo, unsure of what's in store for me. Worst part is, everyone in the family is freaking excited for this day. It's sad actually. I hate it having to be the one who breaks it to them. Oh well, that's life. I have a couple of backup plans in the event that I didn't enter a University.(NUS to be exact) But I hate having to resort to backups. So till then, I shall just wish for the best. Hopefully that's not a pipe dream :/
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|01:56 pm] |
Moving on to better things
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|01:54 pm] |
This is hilarious. And guess what? Haven't caught the show yet! Quite honestly, it's just so hyped up and I'm starting to lose interest in it already. This doesn't mean I don't dig Jacob ok!
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